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Well actually, where I'm sitting, my birthday is over, but since we're on Pacific time, I still have a little time left.
Yeah, today I turned
THIRTY.
The answer to the question "do you feel any older?" has finally become "yes."
I just can't believe it. How can I posibly be thirty? I'm still... geez, I still feel like I did when I was in college. Nothing's changed. I'm still living at home (the apartment's a ways off from being ready to live in.). I'm still working at my first real job. I still do and like everything I did fifteen years ago. And not much beyond that.
*sigh*
I haven't accomplished anything. I was this big boy genius kid, who was gonna win the nobel or the pulitzer or some crap... and I'm a librarian who can barely afford his own place, and it's 12:30 AM, and I'm thirty, and tomorrow morning I have to drive my girlfriend to her psychologist.
Thirty.
Fuck.
Ah, hell. It could have been a lot worse. My life, I could probably have been dead a dozen times over, or insane, or in jail, or something.
It's not so bad... I'll feel better in the morning.
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Umm... congratulations, I guess? Sorry that you feel that way. It's kinda interesting, though, that at 22 years old I was feeling the same way that you are now. Either I'm mature for my age or heading down a one-way street to being found naked in a McDonalds paying for a McTaco with Monopoly money.
As the very least, you have some things to be very thankful for at this age. First, you have a job that you seem to enjoy for the most part. A lot of us here don't seem to have that. Second, you're still in the same shape at 30 that you were at 20. You're not going downhill; live it up! Third, you have Julie. Enough said right there.
Anyway, try and have some fun on the second day of your 30th year.
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Y'know, I used to think "oh, I'm smart and do well in school, I'm going to be so �bersuccessful some day", too. But, honestly, I don't really even care about that anymore. I really think I'll be happy w/ my life as long as I have someone to share it with. That's what's become important to me. *shrug*
Is it bad to have lost all ambition for fame and fortune at less than half-a-year into one's twenties?
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Of course not. It's called "perspective". I got that some time around 16.
Money, power, fame; it's all worthless. PEOPLE, that's where it's at. Your only legacy when you go will be the lives you touched, or even created. Make it a good one.
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Yes, I think we all realize at some stage of our lives that our ambitions will not always bring us what we want, and start to change pace and direction accordingly. However, some people are remarkably short-sighted in this respect.
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"Don't feel guilty if you don't know what to do with your life. The most interesting people I know didn't know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives. Some of the most interesting 40 year olds I know still don't." Baz Lurmann
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Time to enter the "Dirty Thirties".
Sorry, couldn't resist.
Also another thing, some people say that you're not really thirty, but you're 18 with 12 years of experience.
Happy Birthday, Rob
Eric
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Without wishing to sound condecending Omega, the sort of "perspective" you got when you hit 16 is the same as what everyone got. You'll find, when you hit around 20, you'll get a new perspective. Which will again change at 25, 30, and so on.
Don't try and act your age. Don't try and act any age. Act the way you want to.
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OnToMars
Now on to the making of films!
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"My friends say I should act my age Whats my age again? (whats my age again?)
That's about the time that she broke up with me No one should take themselves so seriously With many years ahead to fall in line Why would you wish that on me I never want to act my age Whats my age again? whats my age again? "
-Blink 182
Happy birthday, First.
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Happy birthday, FoT.
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