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[QUOTE]Originally posted by TerraZ: [QB] Well, I haven't posted here in a long while... so I'll answer the question.. and I'm not afraid of details [IMG]http://flare.solareclipse.net/smile.gif[/IMG] Sometimes during the Spring of 1990 (4th grade), at school, a big guy of the bully type comes toward me on my way back from school me and starts calling me unpleasant names. In those days, although I never endulged in physical fights, when someone called me names, I always responded with names of my own. However, the guy somes toward me and starts squeezing my cheeks. What I did wrong that day was that to free myself from his grasps, I had to bite his finger almost to the bone. Like I said, I never fought because I couldn't punch, so whenever I had to hurt someone, it was by biting. I live in a small city where there was only one school so news travel fast. During summer camp that year (where all the troublesome kids end up), that guy and his friends (about 20 of them) started calling me a Raging Dog, a nickname that stuck to me for at least 3 years. Even though only those guys ever said it, I started avoiding public area at school, taking refuge into the library instead, fearing I might run into them. And I still did, from time to time. The humiliation was horrible. It changed me. I became reclusive, too quiet, anti-social even. I was timid before but it became worst than ever after that. Up until recently I was so shy I was afraid of looking a cashier in the face when purshasing something as ordinary as a book. Where's my life right now? I'm depressed most of the time and extremely pessimistic. I still don't have a girlfirend, I'm even still a virgin and my timidity is still big enough to prevent me from even asking a girl out. Plus I only really have one real friend, the only person on this sorry world to really understand what I feel. The only one I do stuff with. I'm also traumatized with the future and unable to take chances for about anything. "Wanna go to that upcoming concert?" "No, I might not like it..." And I'm convinced I'll never do anything remotely useful in my life. In short, I hate life except for those trivial immediate pleasures like eating, watching TV, reading forums on the net and debating with my (only) friend about anything. Feels good to relieve myself of this... Feel free to comment but please, no "You'll see! Life will get better! You just have to be positive". It doesn't work coming from my friend, so it ain't gonna work coming from you even if it's with the best of intentions. Sorry if I sound angry, but it still hurts... [/QB][/QUOTE]
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