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I'm writing this on my lunchbreak. about 30 min. ago, just before our lunch started, a delivery-guy came in and took an item to deliver to a customer. I looked up from my desk to see if I could help, and saw the man.
I recognized him instantly. A former big bully from my old school, seven years ago. And here we meet again.
I remember the threats, the harassments, the fear...
He doesn't recognize me, so I walk up to him. I say his first name and he looks surprised. He's never been here before...
Now I didn't start a fight, I didn't even say my own name. God knows how many of his fucked up friends he still hangs out with, I was afraid they'd "visit" me again.
So everything blew over, he left without remembering me, but my hands are shaking still, two hours later...
I don't feel to hot...
------------------ Here lies a toppled god, His fall was not a small one. We did but build his pedestal, A narrow and a tall one.
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But look at the bright side. He's delivering whatever and you've got an office job. You're moving up in the world, he isn't.
On a different note, I've actually bumped into some old bullies who used to pick on me in High School here at Towson U. This one guy was in class with me, and was very apologetic when he recognized me ... you know, the "man, I'm sorry for High School..." We're actually friends now, and hang out at the bar every now and then, so its kinda cool burying the hatchet.
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Thanks, you're right of course. I try to think about those arguments, and revenge isn't a logical action, but the little scared, forgotten kid inside won't stop hurting... Hopefully I will be able to work WITH that little kid instead of ignoring him and becoming him whenever I get mad or lonely.
------------------ Here lies a toppled god, His fall was not a small one. We did but build his pedestal, A narrow and a tall one.
Sometime in high school, I started viewing those sorts of people, not as objects of hatred, but simply as morons to ignore and forget about as much as possible. And I don't mean I came to that conclusion and had to make an effort to do it. I mean I just started doing it, w/o even trying. *shrug* I guess that wouldn't work for everyone, though...
------------------ "What he did to that walrus gentle-man was inexcusable." -T. Herman Zweibel on "Mr. Woodrow Wood-pecker", The Onion, 7-Nov-2000
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Interesting... I've had a few encounters with former bullies. Some of them turned out to be decent people, and some...well, lets just say they didn't last long.
------------------ "I'm not like George Bush. If he wins or loses, life goes on. I will do anything to win." - Al Gore, Newsweek, 1999
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PsyLiam: Ok, medium-sized lol. You posted while I was typing, so it came out extra weird.
These past few months have been trying on me, and I'm not out of the spam yet. I am not going to whine, however, but try to be thankful for my life not being worse (for once it works, ha!).
I think there are some apples in the fridge. Maybe I'll eat one.
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"Personal Hygiene is a minority" "What? That doesn't make any sense" "I'll make you sense" "What? What's wrong with - " "Personal Hygiene? Nothing, and that's why it's a minority." "You're retarded. Go away." "That's your sense."
------------------ "Karate is a form of martial arts in which people who have had years and years of training can, using only their hands and feet, make some of the worst movies in the history of the world." - Dave Barry
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I hope when I go back to my high school reunion, most of the people I hate or have hated will have misrable lives and low income jobs. I'd like to see their face when they see me making over $100,000 a year and out of the closet...
Revenge is a sweet dish best served with a Porche
------------------ "Oh for fuck's sake, stop your moaning, If you fancy a threesome at this time of night, you can't get start getting choosey about which particular three! -Queer As Folk, UK
[This message has been edited by Michael_T (edited November 30, 2000).]
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