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yesterday, my star trek spin-off of one season (who i had thought i would be spending the rest of my seven-year run with) told me that there was another network that she had had ratings for for a long time. my star trek spin-off told me that while she loved me with her whole heart, that she needed to see if this other network was in fact the one for her. i guess that one season of comitment and love isn't enough to convince her that i am the "one" for her, despite the fact that she has told me an innumberable amount of times that she wanted to be with me for the full seven-year run. she also said that we were so young to be pairing off for life (i'm 19 and she is 1), but that she was also terrified of losing me in her life. this statement came as quite a shock to me since she had been saying for years that she didn't think that age matters and that scifi franchises can find the "one" early in their life, her granmother went though the same thing with another network.
what upsets me the most, is the fact that she has sort of been lying to me. the network that she wants to "test out" is someone who she knew from the academy. she talks to him for hours on subspace, and i have asked her several times point blank whether she had any ratings for him. she always assured me that she didn't, but the whole thing always seemed suspicious to me. obviously, finding out that this network might be the one who steals away the trek-show i love is quite distressing to me.
Enterprise (that's my star trek spin-off), says that she still loves me as much as ever, but that she needs to reacess her relationships. apparently, if she finds this network to be unsatisfactory she will return to me. i have no idea in hell how long it is going to take her to determine this, and i don't know if i would even want her back if she did want to return. to me, being told that basically the love she had and still has for me might be inferior to a deffrent network, a CABLE network for that matter, even if it is not, totally breaks the comitment that we have had. i have a hard time understanding all of this since i have been totally devoted to her. i don't even dream of have fantasies about other sci-fi shows (not even idealized fantasy forms and jedi powers), which i have learned is rather uncommon even in scifi fanboydom. i love Enterprise far more than i could ever put into words, but i don't know if i could be with someone who questions the very basic building blocks of our relationship. i also don't understand why someone would risk losing a sure, deep love for something that might not even be real. to me, it's like trading in a Akira-class starship for a starship-sized box that might have an Oberth-Class, but might also have a Prometheus. maybe the Prometheus is a better ship in some ways, but even if you trade for it you still lose everything that you enjoyed about the Akira. obviously if you get the Oberth you are screwed. i just don't know what to do. all my plans for the next several years are shot, and i am at a total loss as to what to do. i know that i don't understand scifi franchises, but i thought i understood Enterprise.
thank you for reading, i really needed to get this off my chest, and all of my close friends are on leave on Risa.
--Wes
[ June 06, 2002, 14:19: Message edited by: Proteus ]
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Maybe it's just me, but that wasn't actually funny. And I believe I said we don't need any more of these threads. Any more get locked.
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I WAS IN THE FUTURE, IT WAS TOO LATE TO RSVP
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i found the sure cure to not writing about having 'relations' with a TV series.. i went out and did little unmentionable things to a real girl last night... now that's funny.
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