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Okay... so I've been at ccamp for almost a week... in that time, I've left camp to drive back to Spokane more times than I can count, and I've had some of the biggest crisises of my life occur... cool, huh? Nothing like knowing the world is falling apart at your feet while you're stuck out in the middle of the woods and can only leave at certain hours and only if you get permission.... it sucks... but otherwise, it's been a lot of fun being at camp. The kids are cute, I've gotten to know my band teacher even better than I did before, and I'm making a lot of progress as far as getting ready to enter the music world... it's awesome!
If any of you remember way back when we were at SFCR and I had those problems with my best guy friend telling me he was in love with me while being married, well, there's been an update in that... I hadn't talked to him since the day his wife found out what he said to me, but on Monday I walked into Taco Bell and saw him... yep. He works there. And though i gave him EVERY opportunity to walk away from me, and though I was scared silly the entire time I was there, he came over and started talking to ME and told me that he wants my phone # so we can catch up.... do I give it to him or not? Tough question, I've been doing a lot of debating on it.... a LOT.... anyway, as of now, no, he's not getting the number... not yet....
Eric, my ex, is getting married. He's marrying someone he's been with for three months (Gee... sounds familiar) and he's also converting to mormonism for her... there goes his dreams of becoming youth pastor at our youth group, I guess. Sucks to be him.
Hmm... what else? Oh.... big wrist problems are back, and PHENOMONAL family problems are taking place in my life... sucks, but that's the way it is. Anyway, I'm at camp for another week and then i go to Creation, so that's going to help a lot... it'll keep me calm and stuff.... plus I've got LOTS of people here IRL helping me out, so things are good, even though they should be bad...
Well, that's an update on my life, whether you wanted it or not... now I've got to go back out to camp... it's a 30 min drive, so here I go... yipee :-P
~LOA
------------------ "What IS is with you and older men????" ~Brandon Humphreys (FOM) '99
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Complicated just doesn't cover it, does it. Good Luck!
I don't know where you live, but I'm in a relatively small place, and we have two Taco Bells, and two Taco Bell Expresses within 15 miles of my house. Go to the other Taco Bell.
[Misses the French onion soup, the excellent burgers, and especially, the dessert called DEATH BY CHOCOLATE!]
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My mother taught me that if I didn't have anything nice to say, not to say anything at all.
------------------ I was right in the middle of a gnikcuf reptile zoo. And somebody was giving booze to these goddam things." Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas
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I really hate these threads about people with guys/girls swarming around them, who say "I'm so unhappy"
IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII am unhappy goddammit.
In fact, this very morning I was so frustrated I had a hard time stopping to slam the door into the wall over and over again. A chair in my room is literally warped because I got so frustrated about my lack of love and social life I whacked it into the same wall over and over again. You may be unhappy, but if you are, think of me. Suddenly you'll realise you're not nearly as unhappy as I am, and you'll feel happy as a result.
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And yes, I DO consider myself in big psychological trouble.
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The First One
A lovely little thinker, but a bugger when he's pissed
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Actually, I'm with the Raving Dutchman on this. So there's a guy after you? Cool. And I don't see a problem with casual sex when, as best I can tell, everyone is interested wants it unless it's with me. So, Liz, just f*** the guy.
You're worried that he's married? He won't be for much longer, his wife seems a psycho and he's obviously interested in anyone else but her. You can't be his moral guardian. And you seem determined to wreak much emotional torment out of it anyway, so you might as well get laid at the same time. Go ahead, boff him stupid. 8)
The First One
A lovely little thinker, but a bugger when he's pissed
Member # 35
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Oh, sh*t, that bloody religion again. How I wish it had never been invented.
------------------ One Ring to rule them all, One Ring to find them, One Ring to bring them all and in the darkness bind them In the Land of Mordor where the Shadows lie.
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Wow LOA you have problems, well I don't know very much about relationship but her is my best advice. Your best guy friend honestly sounds like he has serious issues to deal with. Like if he loves you than What the hell is he doing with his wife? Perhaps he loves you and his wife with is bad. I don't know it sounds like a ploy to get you in bed (no shit you say). Honestly I would stay away from him if possible until he decides if he wants to be married or not, and you don't want to be the other woman, I seen this blow up with a friend of mine and I can tell you it was bloody and extremely painful for all parties involved (actually that story was really good because she was the other woman, but she didn't know he was married). Anyway you friend honestly sounds like a DOG which also isn't good. Actually I understand why his wife isn't talking to you, while it isn't logical to assume that you are to blame it's hard to admite your husband is a DOG. Of course you do what you what to do, but above all if you decide to try to have relationship be extremely careful. Well I hope you have an easier time in the future.
To RW: I am in the exact same boat as you, O well. Actually I don't feel bad that I don't have a relationship with anyone, I really don't know how it feels so it doesn't hurt, well generally .
HMS White Star (who's advice is probably worth what it paid for )
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Okay.. I'm home overnight before the second session fo camp starts. Anyway, I'd like to adress one issue: I'm not unhappy. I dont' consider myself to be an unhappy person. All in all, I consider myself to be a VERY happy person, and a very resiliant one... however, yes, I'm having a hard time in some aspects of my life right now... I didn't tell you that for sympathy though... I just told you because I figured I'd let you know what's going on...
now... the NEXT issue I'd like to address: Sex. No. I'm not having sex. Not with Landon, not with anyone else... not now, not until I'm married. And before any of you (Charles.) start to say that it's because of God or whatever and then trash my decision for that simple fact, I'd like to make sure that you know that I've ALWAYS held these values on sex... I've ALWAYS said I'm going to wait. Religion came AFTER these decisions.
Charles, your constant bashing and sarcasm towards my beliefs hurts terribly.... I NEVER persecuate you for your beliefs, and I'd like you to leave mine alone... please?
Anyway, I'm sorry your having problems in your life RW... I truly am.... and I'm sorry I'm having problems in MY life... the crying is REALLY getting old..... on the plus side though, I'm losing wieght again! Gotta love that stress factor...
Anyway, I'm going out... I've got a party to attend, and if I'm luck, I can get there before my parents come home and find me here... I'll TTYL, okay? *hugs* Take care...
~Liz
------------------ "What IS is with you and older men????" ~Brandon Humphreys (FOM) '99